Saturday, April 03, 2010
11:26 PM
Perplex, I am. There's still this little tinge of unhappiness.
Tried to stop myself from thinking.
I'm being unfair but I couldn't help it.
I wish we could have a heart to heart chat.
Constantly checking my phone no matter how busy I am and there _ are, messaging_ and me,which sometimes left me wondering if _ late replies were because_ were busy or because of _.
I want to smile to you but something in me tells me that I shouldn't.
Then I hear another voice telling me how mean I was to treat you this way.
Another voice came in telling me to shut myself up and stop thinking about it.
It then occurred to me that I do care about you but I just can't face the reality.
I know and understand the situation and I've forgiven you.
It's difficult to forget.
I'm upset because I felt the sourness and not over the fact that _ texted _.
Sometimes I seriously feel that you're not putting any effort to make me feel better.
Sometimes I seriously feel that perhaps I'm still not special enough for you to do something for me.
Sometimes I'll tell myself, "No, that's who _ is and I'll accept it." and now I realise that I can't live on with this sentence alone.
It's never enough to keep me moving. A little effort in exchange for my smile, will you?
( T_ _ _ H_ _ Y_ _ _ )
Someone, please decode my heart for me.